I am there for you...

For my sweet cousin

I know that it’s very tiring time. Sometimes you will feel that no one loves you. You are all alone. To an extent this is true (only to an extent).  I don’t know how to comfort you or help you. Still I am fighting with my own demons. I have passed through it many times. No one was there to offer any solace, to share the small joys or grief. I have seen my dream shattering in front of my eyes, hopes crushed.  I was incinerated many times. But like a phoenix I have risen from ashes every time. I was brutally murdered many times but I am still alive.

Life may not go according to our plans. We may not get all what we want. Whatever happens, life moves forward. All the issues which you perceive as major will fade away to history tomorrow.  The number of failures doesn’t matter. It’s the final one success that matters. Go for it, grab it.

You may have a lot of friends, relatives, father mother but you are all alone.  You have to fight your own battle. It doesn’t matter what they have. The only thing which matters is, you.  I know it’s very difficult to live like this but believe me it’s not impossible. I patiently listened to the problems of many, gave my shoulder to cry on. But when  I cried no one was there to wipe my tears. No one saw the scars inside me. I was stranded in cold, alone. I cried, knocked many doors but no one listened me. I complained about this injustice to God but he gave me only more tears.  Every morning when I wake up, my pillows are wet. I have learned to stop complain. I have learned to hide my tears.

You say you are in love. I have heard about that. Read many books about this but still in real life I didn’t see any.  May be it is a mirage my mind is trying to form. May be that feeling is just like any other fiction I read. Since I don’t know what it is, I don’t complain that I don’t have this feeling.

Every day I am trying to free myself from this ever deepening clutches of misery, sorrow & failure. I will never allow myself to be a failure. I was born to be happy. I was born to be loved. I was born to taste success. I will not rest till I achieve my birth rights. I am a fighter. I will fight till my last breath.

I know you are also hurt. I may not be able to solve all your problems but in this very short span of my life, I have learned many bitter truths about life. Talk to me, open up I will help in whatever way I can.